Thursday, April 14, 2016

The things they say

Today Sweet Pea came home from preschool and proudly announced, "Today I made binoc-lee-ers!" Sometimes her take on pronunciation is just too awesome not to write down. 

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

I was a labor and delivery nurse...

It's a bittersweet day. I've been a labor and delivery nurse for nearly 12 years.
But I'm also a postpartum nurse.
And a lactation consultant.
And a postpartum clinic nurse.
And a mama to three little lovies.
And a wife.
And the coordinator of our MOMS group.
And...
And...
And...

And I want to be more than just competent.  I want to be confident in my roles. I want to know that I'm doing my best, and that my patients are receiving the care they deserve.  I may look like I have it all together on the outside, but when things start to go south, I'm a walking mess on the inside.  The basic, low risk labor patient?  I've got it.  Water birth, land birth, natural, epidural.  Not a problem. It's when things start to look dicey that I get nervous.  Sure, I'll bet that a lot of labor and delivery nurses feel that way.  But I question whether I can really remember what I need to.  There's just so much to keep up on.  Classes to take, ever changing policies and procedures, charting standards.

So today, after much prayer, I gave it up.  I pulled my supervisor over and let her know how I'm feeling.  That my passion when it comes to work is breastfeeding.  I love being there for the miracle of birth, but even more so, I love helping mamas figure out feedings with their little loves.  And to my pleasant surprise, when I pulled her aside and said I needed to talk to her, she responded with, "You feel like you want to cry, don't you.  I knew it was just a matter of time before you wanted to chat."  To be honest, that was such a relief. She knows where my heart is.  She knows it's hard to give up labor and delivery, but she respects that I don't want to work more hours to keep up every last skill.  She knows the value of my family.  And she also values that I'm as passionate as I am about my role as a lactation consultant when I am at work.

Even yesterday, I couldn't have predicted today would be the day.  But as I was praying at work today, I felt a still small voice letting me know the time had come.

And so I must learn again how to describe what I do.  It's no longer, "I'm a labor and delivery nurse, and lactation consultant."  But instead, "I'm a lactation consultant and nurse in a family birth center."



**disclaimer: I feel like I have always been able to give excellent care to my patients, but I want that statement to remain true :) No one's care has been compromised on my watch.

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

The things they say

I love the things the kids say, Especially when they are still learning correct pronunciation. 

Gracie girl these days:
Ready seddy go!
Happy dirtday to you!
Adds "t" to the end of any word ending in "r"
Loves "wheels on the bus," especially "The daddies on the bus go bounce, bounce, bounce."
Ends sentences with "right?"
I Luz you mommy 
"Scaredy skadows" (scary shadows)
I look at pictures on daddy's pone? (Phone)
All "f" sounds come out as "p"

Monday, January 18, 2016

My devotions tonight held a simple reminder that God "doesn't require that we become completely willing" before he uses us. He has all the time in the world to wait for us, but we don't. He can take our little steps toward His will and mold us into what He desires. 

So completely true. Had I known where He wanted me to be now, I would not have responded to the calls He placed on my life nearly a year ago. But He daily gives me what I need. Stretching me. Making me lean on Him and others. Growing. 

And it is good. 

Tuesday, September 15, 2015

Well Done

Loving this song right now. It's the cry of my heart.

Well Done by Moriah Peters

I'm headed down this narrow road
Chosen by the few
And all that I know is
You told me to follow You

I'm taking a risk and leaving it all
Not knowing what I'll go through
But I'm not alone
As long as I follow You

So when my life's a leap of faith
I can hear you say

Well done, well done
I'm gonna chase You, Lord
I'm gonna show the world Your love, whoa

I'll run, I'll run
I'm gonna run this race
To hear You say well done

If people walk with me, talk with me, looking for truth
They're gonna find out soon
If they're following me, then they're gonna follow You

So let my life speak loud and clear
Lord, I wanna hear

Well done, well done
I'm gonna chase You, Lord
I'm gonna show the world Your love, whoa

I'll run, I'll run
I'm gonna run this race
To hear you say well done

I'm so glad that I get to serve You, Lord
You're the only One I'm living for, whoa
And I'm gonna run straight into Your open arms
I'm gonna follow You with my whole heart, whoa, whoa

Well done, well done
I'm gonna chase You, Lord
I'm gonna show the world Your love, whoa

I'll run, I'll run
I'm gonna run this race
To hear You say well done

I'm gonna run this race
To hear You say well done
I'm gonna run this race
To hear you say well done
Well done


Wednesday, September 9, 2015

1st day of school

It's hard to believe it's our second year of having two kiddos going to "school." Honeygirl's big concerns were whether her bus driver and bus number would be the same.  And of course who her friends would be this year.  One of the downfalls of attending such a large public school is that there are only a few kids in her new class that she knows.  None of which were close friends from last year.  But God always provides.  We talked about how she might make friends with someone she just didn't know last year, or there might be someone who was new to the school who would need friends.  Both were true!  She's made a couple new friends in her class, one of which is a new transplant from the Midwest and shares a lot of her same interests.


Sweet Pea started her second year of preschool today.  She was just excited to go! She was excited to find out that one of her best little buddies from last year is still in her Wednesday class.  Tomorrow we will find out who she knows in her Thursday class.  And she proudly came home announcing she had made a new friend - not surprising, a boy.  Funny enough, it's a little boy that goes to our church, but she has never connected with him there.  She was pretty excited that find out we already know the family!


And Gracie girl and I went to our first school meeting of the year today, where I met a super sweet mama that I'm excited to get to know.  It turns out that her daughter is one of Honeygirl's new friends.   And she had her other little girl who just turned one in a Tula! Yep, new friend for sure. ;)

Saturday, August 1, 2015

Music

Music.

At this moment, I'm kind of in awe of how much it sets the tone of my day. I don't know if I listen to more or less music than the average person, but music is a constant backdrop to my life. 

At home, Pandora plays until the "are you still there?" message appears. Then I click "yes," and the song resumes. 

In the car, it's the radio. Or a CD.  Or sometimes Pandora. 

The stations we listen to are numerous. When Grammie babysits, it's usually Disney music that plays. When I need the a calm reminder that God is over all, it's the Getty channel that's on. Most days, it's All Sons and Daughters. Sometimes I change it up and put in some Michael Buble. Or Chris Tomlin. Or Rascal Flatts. Or Broadway tunes. 

But the music? It's almost always on. It's calming. It's grounding. It's energizing. It's rejuvenating. It makes me dance. It reminds me to pray. It settles my soul. 

And it's not until I'm away from the music for a few days that I realize how much I need it woven into the fabric of each day.